Time for Change.

So lately I've been changing. Some of the decisions I've made I regret. A lot. So does it make sense that I want to change the way I'm changing?

I have a few goals. I have a plan. The question is, can I do it?

I'm so incredibly afraid. Scared to death to take that first step. What if I fall? What if I can't make it? Will anyone be there to catch me? Will anyone care?

I have told myself before that I'm going to do this. I never did. But I will now. I have to. There's just too much at stake for me right now. I've been so busy thinking up excuses and blaming everyone else that I have wasted too much time. This needs to happen. Now.

I can't wait for summer. Random? That's my thought process. :)

I think this summer will be great. I'm estimating it'll be around 8904286590438584309852.3 times better than last summer. I did a lot of calculating for that number.

I am so tired of thinking. My brain needs to relax. I hope it gets better soon.

"The stars lean down to kiss you, and I lie awake and miss you. Pour me a heavy dose of atmosphere. 'Cause I'll dose off safe and soundly, but I miss your arms around me. I'd send a postcard to you, dear. 'Cause darling, I wish you were here."

-Owl City.