Paradise.

You know when you feel overwhelmed? And you're just kind of frozen? Like you don't know what to do, so you just don't do anything.
It's times like these that I sit and I daydream. I let my thoughts carry me away to a blissfully simple place. A place where no one expects anything of me or judges me or pesters me for things. A place where I am accepted for who I am and I don't have to worry about school or college or money. Paradise.

I hate it when people don't understand me. I mean, maybe it's my fault for not being straightforward enough, but I just get so irritated at times.

I want to escape from my life right now. The weight of the world is just too much for me to withstand. If only I could escape.

"When she was just a girl,
she expected the world.
But it flew away from her reach,
so she ran away in her sleep.
Dreamed of paradise;
Every time she closed her eyes."

Just Like a Star Across My Sky.

There are times when I'm not sure how I feel.
It's like the emotion signals firing to my brain are always in extremes, and they are constantly shifting.

Exuberant.
Devastated.
Enraged.
Calm.
Stressed.
Excited.

It's like I can't decide how I feel about anything. And I'm constantly second guessing myself. I don't know what's causing it, but it's an uncomfortable feeling. Like my head is trying to break free of something I have yet to understand. Like something is transforming. Changing.
I don't know if it's for the better. But I hope it is.

Here's To the Greater Things in Life.

It seems like ages ago that I last wrote in this.
A lot has happened. I feel like a new person.

At this moment, I am content. I am dealing with life as it comes to me. I am improving my ability to handle stressful situations. I am striving to improve every single day.

It doesn't feel like autumn, but it's here I suppose.
Leaves are falling. Leaving the trees to free them from the burden they have become. Leaving. I wonder if that's why they're called leaves.
The thing is, they come back. It never fails. Each spring, they return. New, bright, and full of life.

They always come back.

"When the night will begin, the pain it won't end,
Even if she falls in love.
Back, you wanna turn back, your heart will attack,
Even if she falls in love.
Try to look in her eyes, the light is just right,
Even if she falls in love.
And it isn't so bad; it's driving you mad,
Even if she falls in love."