So today I woke up and I decided that I was going to be productive.
I cleaned my room, did laundry, walked the dog.
I was even planning on going to the gym, too bad it closes at 6:30 on Saturdays.
Even though I was feeling better, more confident, I feel like I slipped a bit.
I started to confide in you. I felt like I could trust you. What do I get?
"Tay, you're being a downer.."
Good to know. Maybe I should just stop telling people about my problems.
Why do I feel so broken? So helpless...Maybe I am. Broken beyond repair. Never going to be good enough.
Throughout my life, I've never been the best. Not the most athletic, smartest, prettiest, skinniest, best at drawing, running, singing, writing...I feel like I'll never be good enough. At anything. Talentless.
It's all catching up to me now. I thought people could be what I'm good at. But apparently I can't even do that right. Apparently I'm more selfish than I'd ever thought anyone could be.
I feel useless. Stuck. Maybe I'll just have to stay here.
"Just in time, I'm so glad you have a one-track mind like me
You gave my life direction, a game show love connection we can't deny.
I'm so obsessed, my heart is bound to beat right out my untrimmed chest.
I believe in you, like a virgin, you're Madonna, and I'm always gonna wanna blow your mind."
-Train.
